What are you looking for?
Your eyes keep flicking around.
What are you afraid of?
What was I afraid of?
Them. All of them. She kisses me again, pulls away and I instinctively look around again, checking for potential danger. Every time.
I am a lesbian Meerkat.
She thinks it’s cute that I’m so protective but I can’t help wondering if I’m overreacting, how is she so cool about it? It’s sad that I feel the need to look around and make sure that no one is looking, why though? What am I afraid of? Am I worried that we’re offending someone? Am I waiting for a group of angry straight people are going to run at us with pitchforks? I’m not sure… I think mostly I’m looking around to make sure that no one is going to make some smart arse comment. You get used to the looks of disapproval and side eye but I shouldn’t have too. She says not to worry because most people think she’s a guy anyway but that shouldn’t matter. It doesn’t matter. Does it?
Maybe I’m so overly cautious because I’m Australian? The last twelve months have seen the Australian Queer Community faced with prejudice, snide remarks and in the most extreme cases, violence thanks to a pointless, non-compulsory, non-binding plebiscite which saw the Australian People vote on marriage equality, it got ugly. So you’ll forgive me for being a little jumpy about the PDA’s. I can’t help it. I’m protective, protective if myself as well as the person I’m with and my community as a whole.
I don’t want to be jumpy, I don’t want to have to scout out potential danger, I don’t want too but I don’t know if I’ll be able to stop.
Do you feel safe out in the straight world?